Forgiveness, Peace, Passion, Love, Positivity, & Prayer

is it hard to do? or you need a time to do and accept it...

I’m wondering and thinking, while in my bed, it took a minute then I started crying, remembering the old times how my mom summoned us to pray and worship every morning, and that time I was only 7, I'm also leading the worship and singing gospel songs while my mom and dad will hold their tambourines and my brothers playing their guitar and piano. There is so much peace, love and so much PASSION into it every time I recall those memories. As time goes by & as we matured and now we are facing life in a different time and place, I closed my eyes and stand in the mirror 🪞 looking and talking to myself "Arvy, where is your energy?, where is your love?, where is the light 💡 inside you?, is there any piece, more patience?, do you still have that positivity inside your heart?, I stopped crying and just lift up my hands 🙌 above. Ask forgiveness to my creator "please show me the way, the hope, the reason why I'm still here, lead me where my heart can freely express this feelings, take me to you Father so I may not feel this pain, so I may not feel hate and sin".

I sit, and heard my boy calling me, "Mamaaa" I look at him and he smiled, oh that glow in his eyes, softened my heart and see purity💕 that I can't explain, I feel so alive looking at him and smiling in front of me. Then I see "LOVE"! ♥️

I remember my husband told me, "be positive" always be POSITIVE".

I am weak, I am down sometimes, away from family and close friends for a long period of time, makes you think really far but one person will be there telling you "this is your new Home now" you have to be strong". My husband is always present and always there.

Letting go of my emotions and weakness is really hard. I tried many times. After and before giving birth I'm battling with moods going over and over again, like a whirlwind inside of me.

Will you agree? sometimes we all have our moments, myself included, when we get stuck into negativity.. sucked in the vortex that is gossip, victim- thinking, or insecurities, hateful, neediness, seeking for vengeance. Yes and many of us, once we recognize it – or it is pointed out to us – we're glad to wake up from that haze.

I’m so grateful, God blessed me and I was in such a prayerful space; where my husband and family will be there to remind me, it enabled me to quickly recognize my response is what I have control over and how I might mitigate the situation. And a usual response is to disengage. Why continue to walk up to the bat mid-swing, just to get smacked in the face? disengaging immediately can help but it's not so easy sometimes, you need to stop in one space, focus and breathe...

For my own personal path of faith, none of the other religions I explored gave a better example of forgiving than Elohim our Father in heaven. My mind quickly goes to scripture, but by chapter and verse, but by theme. How often and how many ways are we called to forgive our brothers and sisters?

Praying for the thorn in my side that isn’t going to be removed right away, leads me towards forgiveness.

Peace I give to you: I pray they have peace with whatever is troubling you at the deepest level, that may be inspiring their current seemingly unkind actions.

I Love You: I pray we feel the love of Christ and give me a heart of a child to love unconditionally. & May we look into Him how he gave his life and how he died and gave his life and love for us.

Acceptance, Forgiveness: I pray you find acceptance with your current situation, and to love yourself - myself too. Which leads to to focusing your life and on myself.

praying to God to help me forgive them – especially when they realize or don’t realize they’ve hurt me.

Thru meditation and eventually PRAYER, I figured out there was nothing they could do to make it right. I simply needed to decide for myself if I was going to continue to torture myself and to (in my own mind,) strain our relationship by withholding my forgiveness. This walk ultimately led me to the idea that in most cases, the person who wronged you, doesn’t even need to know you believed an apology was due. Perhaps an exception would be a situation with an ongoing circumstance that could be redirected with kind and loving communication.

God showed us FORGIVENESS & PEACE in times of conflict or battles! Through Him he can make things RIGHT! We just need to give everything to HIM!